My Depression Is Back–But Leaving!!

It’s Christmas weekend! How amazingly cool is that? That means that my kids are out of school, there is a Christmas program at church on Sunday, a Christmas Eve party on Monday night, some Santa help from the older boys a little later on Monday night, and then the in laws come to watch the kids open their presents on Tuesday morning. This really is my favorite time of the year. I am battling a severe depression this week that had me on the phone with my mom in tears. And the strangest thing is–I’m perfectly happy today, and NOTHING has changed. There was no reason to be in tears the other night, it’s just this wacky imbalance in my brain.

I was driving to the grocery store and Grayson wanted to play ‘our’ game. He names an NBA player, then I name one and so on until someone can’t remember one. I do take pride in the fact that I kick his tush every time we play. I told him what was going on inside my head and even told him that we were going to the store for sweet potatoes and carrots and that I would forget two or three times while we were in the store. So he promised to help me. I then remembered we needed regular potatoes as I missed our turn. Finally, after 2 missed turns we made it into the parking lot and into the store. We got the potatoes and sweet potatoes and headed to the check out counter. Did you catch it? I forgot the carrots. So we wander over and get those and check out. By the time we got home, I had made 4 wrong turns, and nearly forgot the carrots. Grayson was laughing at me, and I let him know that it was all because of these problems in my brain. That trip would normally take what, 30 minutes max and it took us nearly an hour. This was why I couldn’t play the NBA game with him. Could you imagine anything more agitating to a crazy person than a memory game???